However, I wasn't always this way. I got through college on M&M's and Dr. Pepper... shhhh, don't tell my kids. In college, my passion was helping people, I majored in Sociology, I volunteered A LOT, it was who I was.

Somewhere in the process of starting my life, I lost who I was. I no longer knew me. I no longer knew what I wanted, what my goals were. I couldn't even think farther ahead than nap time. Aside from sheer exhaustion, I was consumed by motherhood. At the time, this wasn't necessarily a problem for me. I was completely fulfilled by my role as a mommy. Even in the throws of Toddlerdom, when one celiac diagnosis followed the next, and food allergies found their way into our lives, I was still blissfully happy to be a mommy, and only a mommy. It still hadn't occurred to me that the further loss of myself in my 'special needs' children was an impending issue.

During the ongoing grieving process, I stumbled head on into an identity crisis. I won't bore you with the details of my mourning....I'm sure there is an abundance of books about grief. But, because I believe that blessings come from strife, and strength from adversity, I can tell you that the grief gave me passion.
It was through said identity crisis that I discovered who I am, what I want out of life and what my goals are. It is this passion that breathes life into the monotony of parenthood and work, which would otherwise consume us. Passion provides the difference between living, and surviving.
Food Prude provides an outlet for my passion, a channel for the breath of life. I encourage you to find your passion, know your purpose, and live.
I also want to thank my friend Holly Homer, and her passion, business2blogger.com, for providing me the opportunity to turn my purpose into my profession. Without paid sponsors and avid readers, I could not afford to pursue this blog, and share my passion with you.
Thanks for sharing this....
ReplyDeleteWow, Cassidy! Thank you for your post; I was crying as I read it. Praying for you...
ReplyDeleteWhat a great testimony, Cassidy!
ReplyDeleteI am so glad that something good can come from something so awful...thanks for sharing.
ReplyDeleteI am so, so very sorry about your sister. I wish her and your entire family whatever peace you can find as her life here ends. It's not fair & it's such an awful thing ~ cancer.
ReplyDeleteI am hopeful for you to have found an additional love besides the one you have for your children. I, too, know the loss of oneself. It's bitter sweet, and have been facing some major questions myself in the past few years. Maybe we're heading in the right direction. Best of luck.